My Sister Leaving for Collage...

When my sister left for collage me, mike(step-dad), and especially my mother were all upset. At first my mom was bawling, but then she calmed down, then I started bawling, and cried until I got too tried and fell asleep(out like a light). I never saw Stefany(older sis) cry the day we left for home, so I thought she's be okay, but at home, things just weren't the same. The room she once was in every night, was now empty every night, the loud laughing noises emanating from her room were now silent. Everything seemed so much calmer and quieter...I hated it...so much. My parents get home really late, so I fen for myself for food(ramen, cup noodles, cereal, cold cuts and bread, water, etc.) and I feel so alone sometimes, so I just sit in my living room, and listen to the quietness that surrounds my being. One day when my mom and mike decided to take me to the movies, I brought a friend, George, and we went to see "Don't be afraid of the Dark". On the way there my mom broke down and started bawling, "It feels like my heart has been ripped out of me, it just hurts...sniff...it's just not the same...sniff sniff...I just miss her...sniff." Honestly I completely and utterly agreed with her, but I just couldn't sorry for some reason, I don't know why exactly, but I just couldn't. I mised her, that's for sure, but I couldn't cry, I'm just like that sometimes, when I'm sad I can cry, it's like because I cried so much when I was little that I ran out of tears, and when I do cry, it's usually because of something stupid that doesn't really matter to me, that I won't really get in trouble for, or when I'm not even sad, for example when I get a bad grade on a test I start crying, or when I have to speak in front of a big group of people(I have stage fright and everything, but I get a stomach ache, I don't feel sad or anything, so why do I cry?).