Boy Troubles...

Dear Reader,
Have you ever had boy troubles??? Well, I do and it's really complicated, well...maybe not so much. Anyway, this boy...Larry is my ex from last year, but he broke up with me and I still like him. So I still like him, but my friend also likes him, and she just met him this year. Her name is Rebecca, but I just call her Becca. So Becca likes Larry and it drives me crazy when she does because I don't really know how Larry feels about her and I really don't want them to go out. Not because I hate Becca or anything, but I still like Larry and she doesn't really care and still wants to date him and everything. That's what really pisses me off. She told me today that one of her friends was bothering her about not having a boyfriend, so she blurtted out that she has a boyfriend and that his name is Larry. When she told me I swear that I just wanted to jump through the screen of my laptop and punch her square in the fucking face!!! She knows how I feel about Larry and she doesn't seem to give a flying fuck. And the REALLY messed up part of what she told me was that she's going on a fake date with Larry to the movies and with her friend to prove it. She told me that the most that would happen is that he'd put his arm over her shoulder and she would lean on him and he'd lean back, but I think something might 'SUDDENLY' happen where she might kiss him and if she does and I find out I'm going to freaking strangle her!!! When me and Larry were still going out he gave me a necklace that's like an envelope and inside is a little letter that reads 'I Love You' in script and it's so beautiful and it's my most prized possesion in the entire world. I still wear it even now, but only at home usually. But when this break ends I'm going to wear it to school...take that Becca! He didn't get you a freaking necklace, I know I sound childish...but frankly I don't give a damn. The reason I like Larry so much is because he's different from other people completely!!! He's sweet, kind, comppasionate, handsome, generous, thoughtful, brave, smart, AND funny! It's amazing and almost unbelieveable that one single person can have so many traits. The bad thing is I'm too nervous to do anything about them if they DO get together and it's annoying and it hurts sooo much to see the person you love so much being taken right beofre your eyes and doing nothing about it, but I'm too scared and nervous! God dammit! I'm to scared to do anything and I'm no competition with Becca! She's thin, and athletic, and pretty, and I'm not and it's just not fair! Why am I always the one left out/behind!? Why am I always the one that's different and ignored!? I got to go, I'm going to curl up in a ball and die....  ='(

-Gabrielle Nicole Lopez